The rest of my life without you.....

My mother died 12/30/2010 at 11:48 PM. She was my best friend in the world.  There are no words to describe the loss or emptiness I feel. There is a need within my whole being that can not be filled.....

I love you Moma, my heart and soul can not comprehend what I will do for the rest of my life without you.

You are my best friend! There is so much left unsaid.... so much yet still incomplete.....There is such a void within my heart; an emptiness that that can not be filled....

My days are long and the nights so ominous.... I can't sleep....I can't eat.... I don't want to go on without you. This pain is more than I can bear.

There will be no more days of picking up the phone to share with you the latest triumph in my life or to seek your wisdom or to feel the comfort of your love.....

You taught me to love.... You taught me to live....  but moma the one thing you never taught me is how I am to live without you when I need you so much.....

You always told me that you never wanted to hurt your children by dying...You made us promise not to cry, but moma there is no way I can help myself.  The tears come daily... and they consume me because of the hurt....  the loss.... I can't help myself not to cry....

Moma please know I will love you forever .... and forever.... and forever.... and ever....

 Ann


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